Friends or Foes?
It's been a month since I last update my blog. Holiday now and I'm kinda enjoying it. Did quite a few things and met up wif those that I haven been meeting for long. Party world, shopping, working, excising, movies, I did a lot of things this month. Bf going china this friday morning. Not able to send him cause his flight was too early. I bet I couldn't wake up in time to send him off. 12 days of parting. Will be missing him damn much lahx. Will try to waste as much time as possible when he's not in sgp.
I'm beginning to wonder who is my friends. Once my buddy sisters but now, it seems that we have become strangers. We do not really greet each other when we see each other, we don't contact each other unless there's a need. So this is what friends are for? It seems that its not possible to get back to the past where life is simple without being materialistic (wrong spelling don't blame me >.<). It seems that my existence was no longer important. It seems that without me, life would make no difference at all. That's what I feel. When I see other pple's blog and it seems that they are able to maintain their friendship so well, I wonder why can't we? I've got a lot of thinking. But I don't know how to put them in words.
Both of you once told me this: ' You would not be left behind by us when we are together for we are the best sisters forever. Any unhappiness or happiness you can always find us cause we will always be there to be your listener.'
It doesn't seem so now. I'm always being left behind while both of you walk like as if the whole world is now all yours to use. You walk away like I'm the invincible person tagging behind you all. You ask me out purely because of a kind of manner. It doesn't seems like you use your heart to invite me out. You never think of how I feel. I know you all are richer than me. I'm poor although I'm working. I can't always have expensive meals with you all, can't shop for expensive branded clothes with you all. Whenever I'm out with you all, I always feel pressurized. Branded stuff on your body while cheap clothes on myself. I can't help but to compare all that. It just makes me feel upset. But did any of you feel so?
No one seems to respect me. Take my birthday for example. It was never like a celebration. My parents never remember them as well. I guess this year is the last. Whenever you all say you all want celebrate for me, I just don't feel any sincerity at all. No one remember my birthday except for Bf and my dearest sister WT. I just feel that my existence is not important anymore. Only important to Bf. Only to him..
I've decided to forget my birthday. It just seems meaningless to celebrate it. Anyway, it was never important at all. It was never.
Friends or Foes, you decide >.<
I'm beginning to wonder who is my friends. Once my buddy sisters but now, it seems that we have become strangers. We do not really greet each other when we see each other, we don't contact each other unless there's a need. So this is what friends are for? It seems that its not possible to get back to the past where life is simple without being materialistic (wrong spelling don't blame me >.<). It seems that my existence was no longer important. It seems that without me, life would make no difference at all. That's what I feel. When I see other pple's blog and it seems that they are able to maintain their friendship so well, I wonder why can't we? I've got a lot of thinking. But I don't know how to put them in words.
Both of you once told me this: ' You would not be left behind by us when we are together for we are the best sisters forever. Any unhappiness or happiness you can always find us cause we will always be there to be your listener.'
It doesn't seem so now. I'm always being left behind while both of you walk like as if the whole world is now all yours to use. You walk away like I'm the invincible person tagging behind you all. You ask me out purely because of a kind of manner. It doesn't seems like you use your heart to invite me out. You never think of how I feel. I know you all are richer than me. I'm poor although I'm working. I can't always have expensive meals with you all, can't shop for expensive branded clothes with you all. Whenever I'm out with you all, I always feel pressurized. Branded stuff on your body while cheap clothes on myself. I can't help but to compare all that. It just makes me feel upset. But did any of you feel so?
No one seems to respect me. Take my birthday for example. It was never like a celebration. My parents never remember them as well. I guess this year is the last. Whenever you all say you all want celebrate for me, I just don't feel any sincerity at all. No one remember my birthday except for Bf and my dearest sister WT. I just feel that my existence is not important anymore. Only important to Bf. Only to him..
I've decided to forget my birthday. It just seems meaningless to celebrate it. Anyway, it was never important at all. It was never.
Friends or Foes, you decide >.<
posted by ProphenCy @ 7:48 PM
2 Comments:
At 9:06 PM,
ProphenCy said…
Hi!! Ya lorx. Since the last 4g gathering we din get to see each other le. hahx. Nahx its ok. Birthdays aren't that important oso. hahx. Take care too =)
At 11:56 PM,
Anonymous said…
no matter wat u think we nv forget any bit of u frm the past since....... its just that.... well anyway tc. i dint had a happy birthday too, this yr. not to wat i longed for. Its raining on tt day. lol. life's lyk this, ups and downs........and it depends on hoe we see things....
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